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My doctor looked at my test results and said "I'm going to have to
treat you. You know that, right? I'm going to have to treat you." He said it like it was a punishment, like I had done something wrong and I knew what he meant. My numbers wouldn't be where they are if I had just lost weight. I couldn't do it and now my numbers are high enough that he had no choice except to treat me as a diabetic.It was much easier before I was actually diagnosed, to think I could eat like a diabetic. I wasn't checking my blood sugar, I wasn't aware of all the sugar in foods I eat every day or how many foods are high carb.
Since coming home with my meter and no instruction beyond some pamphlets and what I have read online I have gone through many emotions. Crying in the car on the way home from the doctor's office is where I started. From there I think I moved to defiance - oh yes I WILL eat this piece of candy! And today - well today I am just down.
A co-worker just called me and asked if she brought in homemade butternut squash soup, would I eat it? She talked about the anti-oxidants and how good it would be for me. I hung up the phone and teared up again. It's almost 7:30 and I haven't eaten any dinner because I keep thinking - well there isn't anything I can eat anyway!
But it's not just the foods I need to avoid. It's all the mixed messages and confusing information I am getting in trying to research diabetes on my own. I didn't know exercise can lower blood sugar - but can also raise it if you do too much. Sugar is the enemy but no - carbs are worse than sugar - eat natural foods, the less processed the better but wait - fruit is a carb .....End result to all of this is that I am just plain overwhelmed. Overwhelmed, maybe a bit scared, and if I'm being truthful - angry with myself.
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Oy, that sounds familiar. Like when my husband was diagnosed just about 2 years ago. Unfortunately we didn't find the nutrition education to be useful. We, too, were surprised to be sent home with the meter but no information. We started out afraid for him to eat anything. We found experimentation and the glucose meter to be where it's at, rather than any formula for 3 carbs at this meal and 2 at that meal. His A1C's are now in the 5's, down from 9.7. Good luck in finding your routine!
Thanks, I'm feeling pretty lost about now.
Stuff like this can get confusing. I have been trying to lower my cholesterol for about 6 months now and I think I have finally found the right combination. The drugs made me ache all over so I wanted to do it with diet and exercise. Boy did I not know what I was getting into. I can imagine that watching your blood sugar is worse. Good luck and know that somewhere down the road things will get better, it just takes a while to get there.
Oh crikey - been there and done that and to honest, I was given a diabetic diet that STILL GAVE ME HIGH LEVELS!!! The only thing that works for me to keep my levels even (even though I am on Metformin tablets) is to only have one carb exchange (15 grams of carb) every three hours. It was hard at first, mostly because, 15 grams of carbs is bugger all!! But I did get used to it pretty quickly....although I have fallen off the wagon just recently - Im not made of stone!!!
I hope since you posted this that you have found some things that work for you and that it is less overwhelming than it was - its a major blow, I know! Hang in there, and dont let the doctor make you feel worse, they really dont have all the answers, they just like to pretend they do.
Hugs!
Oh, this is so hard! I really hope it's become easier since your post. All good wishes to you.
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