Good news! Sort of ..

My first phone call after I left the doctor's office today "Guess what?  I'm fatter than I thought!"

Okay, maybe not fatter.  And normally I would never use 'fatter' and 'good' in the same sentence.  But apparently I am an inch shorter than I thought I was, and that brought my BMI up closer to the BMI that is acceptable for weight loss surgery without having to have additional things like diabetes or sleep apnea.

The doctor did not seem to think I would have a problem being approved which was a relief.  He also seemed to think I would only need to do a 3 month diet as opposed to a 6 month diet which is what I had heard previous.  The sooner the better, I say!  I need to call in a week to make sure the test results they did today are back, to get started on the next steps.  I need to see a pulmonologist, a dietitian, a psychologist, and I can't remember who else.  Whatever.  Let's get this thing going!!!

Very, very pleased.

Sh-h-h-h .. while nobody is looking ....

It's kind of funny.  I'm not keeping this weight loss surgery thing a secret, but nobody reads this blog so I can talk about it all I want but it will still be a surprise to most!

I went to my seminar tonight.  When you have weight loss surgery you have to do all kinds of things first.  One thing is go to a seminar to learn all about the different kinds of surgeries available.  I did that tonight.  Apparently the hoops you jump through all depends on what insurance you have.  I swear some of them make you miserable ahead of time just to get you to back out.

My lovely insurance requires a 6 month freaking supervised diet with a physician.  Gah!  While another insurance only requires 2 years of medical data from a patient's doc.  Very arbitrary if you ask me.  But - I made a consultation appointment with my chosen surgeon for the end of the month.  In the meantime I have a stack of paperwork to finish!  Weight loss and general health history paperwork.  Yuk!

Acupuncture, maybe?

While sitting at my desk at work going along with my usual business, I realized I was looking forward to eating my lunch. I found myself looking at the clock to see what time it was, if it was too early or if I could eat yet.

Then I realized, I wasn't hungry.

That didn't totally startle me but it did upset me a bit when I also realized I was craving something. I wasn't sure what it was but there was a craving that my mind was leading to my lunch to fulfill.

I wanted a cigarette.



Is it possible that after 6 or 7 years I still may be craving cigarettes? I know I smoked for a long time, and when someone is smoking near me sometimes I don't mind it at all - dare I say - it smells good to me? It's already been established pretty definitely that I am an emotional eater. I reward myself for good things with food. I console myself for bad things, with food. If I'm bored, food is my friend. But cigarettes? I have not consciously recognized a craving for a cigarette in a long time.

Geez, I think I'm going to have to get my head shrunk to lose weight! But no, then I'll just be a fat girl with a tiny head! Not the look I'm going for.

Just more stuff to think about.

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